The Time Has Come

I think we can safely say that spring has arrived. With it people are in better spirits, including myself.

In my last blog I mentioned that I was awaiting news of my breast biopsy. Luckily, the results were negative. When I entered the doctor’s office for the results I wasn’t even given a chance to sit down before he announced the results. The doctor then quickly apologized for not inviting me to sit but he said that I looked so tense that he wanted to immediately ease my mind. I sighed with relief, not realizing until then how much it was weighing on me.

The emotional clutter I was feeling is slowly being cleared. One of my first important decisions was regarding my “no name” relationship with the younger man, Ryan; I decided to end it. Sometime ago I realized that this “undefined” relationship was a very pleasant distraction, but it was becoming a dependency, like a drug. It kept me from moving forward, evolving.

He came into my life when I needed to feel like a woman, to express my sexuality. We developed a friendship. Countless hours were spent discussing many topics while sharing a bottle of wine.

I will always look back at this relationship as part of my sexual awakening and never forget the first time we kissed (it is permanently etched in my mind) but, mostly how he appreciated me for being me.

Good-bye Ryan, the sexy man, the gentle soul.


4 thoughts on “The Time Has Come

  1. I will not comment on whether you did the right thing or not letting go of Ryan, only you know if you did! I would like to add that I recently met a man a few years younger than me, and when I asked him what he is looking for in a relationship, he answered. Remember as children we felt so happy and excited to have a new friend! Did we ask this friend where this relationship would go?, no, we were just happy getting to know our new friend! So, this was his answer, I am happy and excited about getting to know you however long our friendship lasts. I liked that answer, no pressure, no expectations!


  2. Contente que tu as repris ta plume , je commençais à être inquiète . Très très contente que tu as rompue avec ce Ryan. Selon moi tu as fait un bon ménage de printemps et maintenant on n’avance avec un esprit sain. Paulo Coelho est un auteur que j’ai beaucoup lu et que j’adore. Bravo on continue à se faire confiance ,à s’aimer et s’apprécier .


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